Sooo, I have a crush on the dude that sits next to me during English...  And, yeah, not much to say besides that.  'Course it's a crush that borders slightly as fangirling...  >_< 

It's odd.  I haven't really crushed on anyone in a while now.  Not since last year.  I mean, the only reason I was interested in Anthony was 'cause he told me he liked me...  Ehh... I don't want to be in a relationship anyway.  I don't think I'd make a good girlfriend, I think I'd just end up using them for their body like in my last (and only) "serious" relationship.  Yep.  I use them for their bodies.  >_>;; 

Like Chris.  He was a nice guy I suppose, but I if I'm honest (and I make a point in being honest) I really didn't like him or care about him all that much.  I mean, I liked kissing him and stuff, but other then that nada.  Nothing.  Well, he was hot.  So yeah, not girlfriend material. 

I'm also suffering from writer's block.  Totally sucks.  I want to write crack but I've noticed that most of my ideas are really serious shit and while I want to write about it I can't seem to put it down.  Also, my mom's being all RAWR right now.  I thought her new job calmed her down a bit but I guess not really. 

I have a feeling a very big part of her mood is my fault.  *headdesk* 

I wrote some poetry, though, which I haven't done fore a very long while.  They're more personal than a lot of the stuff I've done lately and I'm wondering whether that's a good or bad thing.  I think it means that I'm being more honest/open with myself when it comes to my "art" and if that's the case then YAY!!  XDDD 

I feel like I'm growing up and that scares me sometimes.